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48 AND 47 of 50- Dr. Dolittle

Passion:  strong and barely controllable emotion• a state or outburst of such emotion *an intense desire or enthusiasm for something  Yep. that pretty much describes why I am a day late and combining post f0r 47 . Though, it could have truly been the obsession(the state of being obsessed with someone or something• an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person’s mind) OF my passion that interfered with my obligations.

Lucy a ‘dump’ dog and her Ty
Hobo ‘Bo’- Dumped and starved, at the right place 😉

A puppy.  An abandoned puppy, and the search for her other rejected companions.  Lee came to the house and said “A spy cam needed to be set up at the corner, to catch the fools who dump dogs out here.” Then proceeded to tell that he saw four puppies and a chihuahua mix up the road as he drove in. This is the same place we found the puppy, Lucy, and a brown lab, that he now owns.  Keith gave me a look and said, ‘No.”

I respected that ‘no, I have no need for another dog. Don’t want one. I have 3 dogs, 4 if you count Evan’s dog I babysit, 2 cats and 2 horses. I started thinking about them:  “Maybe they are just a litter that wandered off their property with their chi friend, and happen to be in the area we have found 2 dog’s who now have ‘tags’ purchased by us. Or they were dumped and hungry and this will be a cold night. If they are still there in the A.M. the truck traffic from the caleche pit may kill them. Maybe they will make it to the caleche pit office and they will care for them, as they do often. How little are they? Will the coyotes kill them?” The passion is turning into obsession.  Meg comes in with Tanah, they just drove past the same corner, and did not see any pups, but did see a couple of trucks making a u turn up the road. ‘Maybe someone else came and found them. Maybe the dumpers conscience got to them. The text I receive from Lee as he is driving out, about an hour into respecting Keith’s ‘no’, reads ‘1 left.’ I tell Keith then I plead to rescue. He said”, Take your phone.”’ I drive to the corner and see nothing first, then look on the side under a small mesquite and see that piece  of trash is a pup.  I get out of the car and it does not move. Maybe it is dead, and not the one Lee saw. It must have heard me, it lifts it’s head, then lays it back down. So lost. I reach down cooing ‘Puppy’ which receives a slight whimper from her, and a bark in the distance from the brush behind. I pick her up and start to look for more. I see none, I hear none. I look and walk, and drive on dirt road to a place people dump trash illegally, as well as dogs. I find nothing. I call, I whistle. All the time the pup has her nose pressed in the crook of my neck, holding on to me as well as a dog can without baby arms. My passion. It is beyond compassion.

1 of 4 that I was able to find- Needs a home!

The bark I heard did not sound like a puppy, I think maybe the chihuahua mix Lee had described. Maybe someone picked up all the pups they saw but missed this one and the scared older chihuahua. Coyotes will eat it. Why won’t it come, I know it is out there. I finally give up. One puppy in my arms Praying the others are safe somewhere.  Keith went with me a couple of hours later, so I could search again, now that it is darker and colder. At 4 AM I hear what I think is an unfamiliar bark in the distance, maybe it is pups, or chihuahua on other side of fence, barking at ours dogs, maybe it is a dream. Keith reminds me the small dogs can fit through the gate, I dress and go out anyway. Obsessed.

I do love animals. I have always loved animals. I am passionate about animals. My heart breaks, my soul aches when I lose one of my animal companions. My throat tightens and my eyes tear at each animal I see dead on the roads. Animals wandering the roads catch my attention, always. Animals gravitate to me, I walk in a yard, the first to greet me is the dog or cat of the family.  I wanted to be a veterinarian. God has gifted me with the ability to relate to animals. I see every stray, injured, lost animal that I touch, as a responsibility God has blessed me with.

My pets have influenced, my 50 years, given me comfort, and yes, love.

Our Missy, a collie would steal kittens from Boots, our cat, she would mother them until Boots would come and swipe Missy’s nose and take her babies back.

Me, Fran with Boots, Missy watching the baby ;)
Me, Fran with Boots, Missy watching the baby 😉

Mom would tell Missy “Watch the baby” as she worked in the yard, and I played. I would be herded by my canine nanny into the rose bushes next to the house, to keep me as far from the road as possible. The same road that Missy crossed to play with other dogs, the same road she was killed on one foggy morning. My brothers and I were visiting my grandparents, after receiving the call my grandmother came to us crying and saying ‘OUR Missy was killed by a car.” Mamaw explained through tears the poor girl who hit her had cried in Daddy’s arms. Mamaw said surely a dog as loved and able to give love as much as Missy, would be with Jesus. I believe that is true, somehow.

Tia,Evans best friend. I failed him and her, when something ‘got’ her when she went out to …..
Liz and Richard- Think an owl took Richard, the same one tried to get Liz.
Max 12 years old. He had been stolen from litter by tom cat, had a bite through his leg, newly born when a friend found him. I raised him on a bottle.
Gabby 17 hand Appendix-retired jumper, — 16 yrs old
Sweet Petite- 16 years old- half starved when we bought her.

I have shared my life with many many animals. 29 Cats, 18 dogs, two rabbits, 3 horses, 3 goats as pets, and more goats as weed eaters and arm breakers and 3 horses.  2 dogs co owned with Evan. 2 dogs re homed for their sake and mine. Goats ‘rehomed’ never eaten, by me. 1 horse rehomed. (To me rehomed is just a step above abandoning) 4 cats and 2 dogs died of OLD age 16+. I have lost my dear pets to cars, poisoning, kidney failure, old age, becoming lost(rapture?).I have grieved the loss of all. I don’t value animal loves over my human loves, but I do grieve loss with the same heart.  With my animals  I have an added sense of responsibility that I don’t have with the humans I love. I take on the responsibility to care for and provide for my animals seriously.  I am their caretaker, if they get lost, they get hurt, they get killed, it is because I failed somehow in the care of them. When they die of old age, I have succeeded, yet I still mourn a life that I loved.

12 Gauge- Half Pyrenees Full of love
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One of the many litters of kittens- All treys
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Siamese with boots, grey and blacks- more babies

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Snort, he gave em the boots
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Ditto the Grand Dam of them all- 100’s were born just from her! Lived to 18

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Taffy- lived to be 17
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Tia and Bubba- best of friends- Both lost in the wilds of west Texas

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Jimmy J.J. April and Ditto- Mamma and kids
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Ginger- lived to 10

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Ranger- Outstanding Dog! lived to17
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Peckerwood- Blue Eye and green eye. Rice helped me find an appropriate name.


My Phoebe when a babe

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Missy, Keith’s and my first dog. Didn’t need baby once we got her, but it was too late to take him back. 😉
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Lilly Langtry- Lived to 19
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Muffin, only other dog my parents had after Missy. Found him at Pancake house in Lubbock.

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My Missy’s only litter. I learned there can be as many ‘Daddy’s’ as come by.
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Dot- MY dog- Heeler Border mix
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More babies-
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Bird whacked his head, too stunned to fly away

Beyond the animals I have spent time and money on, there are those I have rescued, those I have been a halfway house for. 4 puppies have found me here in my home google can’t find. I found a mama cat and kittens and a billion fleas in an abandoned building. I fed a baby hawk deer meat for a week, until I could get it to a bird sanctuary. I have nursed birds back to health after they bash into windows.

A cat with a hole the size of a quarter in it’s neck found care, then a barn to live in. A cat hit by a car, lived in my bedroom for a month. I have fostered litters of kittens for the Humane Society.

Poor Keith. Zoophilia makes no sense to him. Keith can not feel the love I actually DO receive back from these critters I love.

Phoebe, Molly and Guage, lovin on me

It is not that he hates animals,

A leader, no matter where he is in line
A leader, no matter where he is in line
Molly doin what she loves loves loves, fetching and getting

he just knows that cute kitten walking in the alley has siblings and a mother, and I will be crawling through the trash can till I find each last ‘mew’ and bringing them home.  I will set up cat boxes in the house because the temperature may drop below the temp they experienced alone in the alley the night before. He knows this is the time no one will want any cats so we will end up with them all and that 5 out of the 6 kittens will be female and need to be spayed, and none will run away until we do spend money on them. He knows those kittens will grow up to be cats, laying around doing nothing. He knows we will walk past another alley and see more kittens. He knows the list of animals I have in my 50 short years. He knows I can at least double that in the next 20 or so left.  So Keith sneezes loudly scares the kitten away and turns me quickly, before I catch  glimpse of the furry ball of fluff and love.IMG_3719

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NO regrets 49 days to 50

If there were a magic wand, a way to rewind, these are 50 things in the last 50 years I would adjust…..

  1. Being such a chicken about jumping off the diving board in swimming lessons
  2. The date with the Newsome guy
  3. Going to Powell’s house
  4. Getting the flu in January before mom died
  5. Not wearing sunglasses
  6. Waiting till the time of appointment to go visit mom
  7. Go to see Dad instead of back to work. Or drive 120 MPH instead of 100.
  8. Letting myself get fat
  9. Not going up on Eifel Tower
  10. Help Kirk find a rehab
  11. Develop a relationship with Linda
  12. A Rio Doso trip.
  13. Giving Pokey away
  14. Listening to Bill and Shirley and not visiting Mamie, before I left
  15. Backing out with door open
  16. Not checking on Dot
  17. Giving up when I am right
  18. Keeping quiet about the lies and not bringing the darkness into the light
  19. Losing April
  20. Not losing weight sooner- or more.
  21. Moving out without discussing with Mom and Dad
  22. Not keeping the piano
  23. Leaving Tia with Keith
  24. Quiting Sunday School
  25. Wanting that trailer
  26. Not standing up to LRC board
  27. Not finding that perfect wrinkle cream
  28. Getting in the car with Julie B
  29. Drinking the  Bloody Mary’s, Goldslagger,  and Butterscotch nipple
  30. Giving into fear of rejection
  31. Not learning Financial Peace 30 years sooner
  32. Failing to witness to Rice
  33. Freaking out on Jenny
  34. Being fearful of Evan’s failings
  35. Not writing a book
  36. Not building a cat room off of garage
  37. Not planting a garden
  38. Not polishing the floors as shiny as Ricky did his
  39. Getting my ring stuck, and having to have it cut off
  40. Giving Evan that Gerber chicken stick.
  41. Losing contact with Monica
  42. Seeing statue of Liberty and Central Park while in New York
  43. My wedding dress
  44. More kids. A daughter
  45. Did not live everyday to glorify God
  46. Only 1 tea party with my granddaughters
  47. Licking the brownie bowl tonight
  48. Letting ‘them’ do that surgery on Evan
  49. Not knowing about Celiac when Brian was a baby
  50. Time Keith and I loose with batteling wills

I have been blessed. This literally took me hours. I had to search to find 50 things to want to change, or could have been done differently. So many things do not matter at all, my life is none the worse, because I did not have the sexy off the shoulder wedding dress I  pictured myself in. I have an amazing husband, a blessed marriage of almost 32 years.  That daughter I did not have, has been replaced with my daughter in laws and granddaughters. Being with my parents at the time of their deaths, would not have changed their dying.  God brought me through those trials I have no control over, the stroke for Evan, the suffering from undiagnosed Celiac for Brian, He provided strength and peace and blessings for us all through our trials. Much of the ‘regrets’ of life are my own mistakes, my own wrong choices and today, I can still change, I can rectify. I have a future and a hope.  I am stronger and smarter and all the more for all the good bad and ugly of all of these years.

Jeremiah 29:11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

John 14:27Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

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Day 50 to 50 years

50 days until I turn 50 years old. I don’t feel 50. I don’t think I look 50


. But then I see someone that looks waaaaaay better than I,and they are 50 or more, I know my perspective must be off, when it comes to myself.

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My parents were older , 33 and 34, when they got me.

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Not really that ‘old , especially now that so many start so late, but compared to the parents my brothers had, and my friends had,and my kids had, they were  pretty old. At 12 years old my parents were 45 46. When Lee was 12.  I was 31. Brian 12,  I was 33. Evan I was 38.

Scan 9 Heck, my first grandchildren were born before I was 45.

When my brother Mike,  turned 50,  11 years ago,  I gave him hell, because that is what little younger sisters are suppose to do, not because I thought him to be old.  Mike has played in bands, lived in Austin, wore his hair a bit too long, always wore jeans and tennis shoes, been fit (never fat) traveled, stayed up late, never had kids…. maybe that is why he has never aged much. 🙂

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My perspective of age seems to be ‘off’. Keith and I often will see a someone we have gone to school with and be aghast because they look way older than we and even our 10 year older siblings. We then wonder if we are blinded by our old aged eyes and can’t really see our ancient-ness.  IMG_2315 I just don’t feel like we are any older. Keith is the same guy today as he was 32 years ago. Scan 59

We are starting to look alike- almost 31 years together
We are starting to look alike- almost 31 years together

Scan 10 Maybe glasses are needed?

I look at pictures of my mom at 53, my grandmother in her early 80’s, me at 20.Scan 85  Even my grandmother does not look THAT old! Mom does not look the ancient one, my Jr. High mind made her to be, 8 years prior, and she is 3 year’s older than I am about to be.

I look at my mom at 33, her baby’s first EasterScan 94Compared to the same for me, except my being 26– I see my perspective is askew.  Mom was not an OLD looking mom, she was beautiful. Scan 96

The saying of being as old as you feel seems to fit me well.

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I think of myself as not quite 20. Not because I ‘look’ that young, but I just think that immaturely.


A really weird thing about this messed up perspective is that I  feel intimidated by those older than my mind age, yet younger than my real age. My son’s for instance.   It  is CRAZY, to me that these are my sons, they all are so much older than I!.


Unlike when I was horrified at becoming 30, becoming 50 is liberating! I am about to be all grown up! People will listen to me.  Respect me as an  elder. (yeah right)

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Being 50 and not looking my idea of a 50 year old is invigorating, a bit sexifying.

I’s important!

My confidence is growing, I can feel it!DSCF2168

It is like I have reached the top of the hill, and the rest of this journey, though a shorter trip, than the getting to the top, it is going to down now, it will be faster, more coasting, and more fun.

IMG_0107 Wind blowing in my face, maybe a few bumps in the road, some mud, I might bounce around a bit, but I got a firm grip, and the hard ride up is over, I got plenty of gas, and the real fun part is just beginning!,

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50 years 50 days

God just gave me a great idea! Tomorrow it starts! THE countdown! February 15 is exactly 50 days away from April 5, which also happens to be my 50th birthday.

I will be half a century old! Uh, WOW!,

So, I will post something about me, my 50 years of living, memories and such. Good and bad.  I was going to do a year a day, but I can not remember each year ‘exactly’ I do not think-(I am almost 50 you know)  I will work on it- I will not promise complete accuracy on the years– This is a work in progress, just as I!

Another goal in this next 50 days is to loose my final 30 lb’s– I think the post a day may be more attainable. We will see!

This will be fun!! I can’t wait for tomorrow! Tell your friends, get ready for the ride of MY lifetime!

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Because I DO Love

My life is peppered with “Should have” of “Could have” saids.  I am in awe of the Tom Petty’s of the world, who ‘Won’t Back Down’.  I ‘say’ a lot more on my blog, than I do in ‘public’, because I can still type when my heart is pounding in my throat.

Why do I back down?  I don’t want to be rejected. I fear being attacked,opposed. I question my heart. Am I right to stand up against authority, if they are wrong,evil? I believe the world, it is not ‘loving’ to stand, even if it is for the truth.

I concern over man what they will think, if they will still like me, far more than I concern over serving God. I KNOW he won’t reject me. But ‘they’ always do. “Cursed is the man who trusts in man, and makes flesh his strength. Whose heart departs from the Lord. He shall be like a shrub in the desert. And shall not see when good comes.  Jeremiah 17:6   The twist in my concern of man opinion, man objection, man judgement, man rejection, is that I am trusting in man. I am letting man, (even if that man  be me) be the governor of what I do and say, not God. If I do something to please man, or keep man pleased with me, I am manipulating the situation. For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For If I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ. Galatians 1:10 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths.  Proverbs 3:5-6

When I do get the guts to speak, to let him direct my paths and quit leaning on my fear of rejection, I KNOW I am trusting and He IS leading. This does not remove the heart pounding, nor does it make ‘them’ like me. It just gives me the strength to endure. To not be anxious, beyond my understanding. I allow a relationship, open the door, and survive the ‘No’. My heart is not broken and I forgive the rejection.  Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, and whose hope is the Lord. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, which spreads out it roots by the river, and will not fear when heat comes. But it’s leaf will be green and will not be anxious in the year of drought nor will cease from yielding fruit. . Jeremiah 17:7-8

Blessed , but not among men. Jeremiah says  the ‘tree’ will not fear when ‘Heat’ comes. The heat of rejection, opposition,condemnation, accusation, anger, abuse, death.    Dr. Ben Carson, St. Valentine Joan of Arc,John Adams,Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Elizabeth Kenny, Edna Gladney, Dr. Rodney FordJoe the PlumberDr.Ignaz Semmelweis,Keith, myself.  We are not guaranteed acceptance from man for standing for the truth. Whether it be the truth that gluten is intolerable to everyone ,or liberal ideals are destroying, or opposing a corrupt leadership, or pointing out the sins of man, for the transformation of man, or just washing your hands.

Matthew 5:11 “Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake

I do trust man. I do give man the benefit of the doubt. I do love my neighbor. I consider others. I do respect positions of authority. I am supposed to.I believe man when they say it is wrong to hurt others, disrespect others, to be unkind to others. God says the same.

  • Let each of you look not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others Philippians 2:4
  • Obey Those who rule over you, and be submissive, for they watch out for the souls, as those who must give account. Let them do so with joy and not with grief, for that would be unprofitable for you Hebrews 13:17
  • The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness. self control. Against such there is no law. Galatians 5:22-23   

God also says to not but my trust in man. God tells me of false prophets, wolves in sheep’s clothing. God tells me the ways of the world, men is not His way. If I am partaking of the world, doing as, agreeing with the ways of man, compromising I am not pleasing to God, I have become the world. God tells me to stay away from believers who are doing wrong.

  •  Psalm 146:3 Do not put your trust in princes,Nor in a son of man, in whom there is no help..
  • Matthew 15:8–9 8 ‘These people draw near to Me with their mouth, And honor Me with their lips, But their heart is far from Me. 9 And in vain they worship Me, Teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.’ ”
  • Matthew 7:15 15 “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.
  • Luke 16:15 But Jesus said to them, “You are the ones who justify yourselves in men’s eyes, but God knows your hearts. For what is highly prized among men is utterly detestable in God’s sight
  • .1 John 2:15-1715 Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—is not of the Father but is of the world. 17 And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever.
  • 1 Corinthians 5:11-1311 But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolaters, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner—not even to eat with such a person.12 For what have I to do with judging those also who are outside? Do you not judge those who are inside? 13 But those who are outside God judges. Therefore “put away from yourselves the evil person.”

How do I do both? I am back to Proverbs 3:5-6 letting God lead me.    I speak the truth in love.  Ephesians 4:1214 that we should no longer be rchildren, tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness of sdeceitful plotting, 15 but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the thead—Christ—   Knowing that it may not be received well ,Hebrews 12:11 11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. But is is necessary for growth of all. Proverbs 10:13 Wisdom is found on the lips of him who has understanding, But a rod is for the back of him who is devoid of understanding

God tells me to stand, and I will be opposed. It is right. 2 Timothy 42 Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort, with all longsuffering and teaching. 3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, because they have itching ears, they will heap up for themselves teachers; 4 and they will turn their ears away from the truth, and be turned aside to fables. 5 But you be watchful in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.  

He did not say it would be easy.  

John 15:18–2118 w“If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19 xIf you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet ybecause you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you, z‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. aIf they kept My word, they will keep yours also. 21 But ball these things they will do to you for My name’s sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me.


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1 Corinthians 11:17-32

Paul is moving on to another issue–But the main issue is still, their NOT BEING OF ONE CORD, they are not a unified body.

17 Now in giving these instructions I do not praise you, since you come together not for the better but for the worse. 18 For first of all, when you come together as a church, I hear that there are divisions among you, and in part I believe it.  After all the other he has spoken of, yeah these Corinthians have divisions, issues. 19 For there must also be factions among you, that those who are approved may be recognized among you.   20 Therefore when you come together in one place, it is not to eat the Lord’s Supper. 21 For in eating, each one takes his own supper ahead of others; and one is hungry and another is drunk.  22 What! Do you not have houses to eat and drink in? Or do you despise the church of God and shame those who have nothing? What shall I say to you? Shall I praise you in this? I do not praise you.  The Lord’s supper is not dinner with friends! Eat at home, worship and respect the Lord in his home.23 For I received from the Lord that which I also delivered to you: that the Lord Jesus on the same night in which He was betrayed took bread; 24 and when He had given thanks, He broke it and said, “Take, eat;[b] this is My body which is broken[c] for you; do this in remembrance of Me.” 25 In the same manner He also took the cup after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in My blood. This do, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of Me.”  26 For as often as you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death till He comes.  27 Therefore whoever eats this bread or drinks this cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty of the body and blood[d] of the Lord. .  28 But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of the bread and drink of the cup. 29 For he who eats and drinks in an unworthy manner[e] eats and drinks judgment to himself, not discerning the Lord’s[f] body.   30 For this reason many are weak and sick among you, and many sleep.  31 For if we would judge ourselves, we would not be judged.  32 But when we are judged, we are chastened by the Lord, that we may not be condemned with the world.

Communion has been turned into an interesting ritual by the different churches. Catholics and Baptist have communion only exclusive to ‘their own’. Methodist and Bible Church’s open communion, to all who believe. Some use wafers some use baked bread. Some use communal cups others little individual cups. Some must go to the ‘land’ of Holy of Holies to receive others sit in their seats and it is passed to them. Some insist on baptism as a prerequisite. Some do it weekly, others monthly, some just at Passover/Easter, some at weddings.

There are a lot of man-made rules attached to communion today. Must be of this religion or that. Must have no sin. Must be baptized in this church or that. Must kneel. Must have a clean heart. Must not hold any anger towards a brother in Christ. Must have no unforgiveness. Must be forgiven. Must be wine. Must not have ever had wine.

I have heard the scripture  1 Corinthians 11:27 But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of the bread and drink of the cup. 29 For he who eats and drinks in an unworthy manner[e] eats and drinks judgment to himself, not discerning the Lord’s[f] body. with  Matthew 5:23 Therefore if you bring your gift to the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24 leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift.  used at communion to ‘tell’ the partakers to make sure they have the ‘right heart’ to receive the elements.  Some will say Paul was talking about ‘examine yourself’ as to if you have divisions amongst yourselves, then throw in Matthew 5:23, which is totally different speaker and time and context, to prove you have to be all hunky dory with you fellow church goers before you have communion.  I disagree with this interpretation by man, to dissuade communion of man and their Father.  

In 17-19 Paul does reprimand for the discord in the church. The Corinthians are a dysfunctional group of people. There are those that think they are better than others, powerful because of their education and social status. The are pointing fingers and condemning the actions of the lowly and holding themselves and their cronies at different standards. Paul is disgusted by them. We have to imagine what was told him about the Lord’s supper mayhem. Remember Paul has a list of ‘problems’ and questions from these people and reports about these people. The church is NOT one. He is saying you are coming together for communion, for what? It shows their hearts are not for ‘the body’ in the way they conduct the communion it is a literally a drunken brawl. It is like a church picnic where people bring food only for themselves and don’t share. Or worse, like bringing breakfast burritos into church service and eating it and washing it down with the communion wine. This church has no respect for others nor God.  After pointing out they have no reason to have communion, he starts to explain how to have communion. If they dare. 😉

Communion is for the believer to remind themselves of the price paid for them. Jesus’ life. To remember His body, the bread of life, was given to us, so we might ingest it and have life eternally. The literal body of Christ was broken so the Holy Spirit can dwell in us. The blood of Christ was spilled, he died yet conquered death, so that we too can have the opportunity to escape death, eternally. To have communion for any reason other than recognizing the price Christ paid for the believers eternal life is disrespectful, to say the least. 

I venture to say, it also wrong for a man to interfere with the communion of a believer and God, based on man’s judgement of man. We are to judge our own hearts. We judge to know we,ourselves, are realizing the sacrifice made for us, each time we take communion.  If we are not ‘perfect’ if we are angry, unforgiving, unforgiven, accused, fearful, doubting, in sin, have adversity in our lives, wouldn’t this be the time we most need to commune with God?

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She(I)Wont Back Down

An amazing Godly, woman, in my life spoke out with God’s truth. 2nd Timothy 4:2 Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. cConvince, drebuke, eexhort, with all longsuffering and teaching.

The movie, October Baby, had convicted her of a truth she already knew, she was compelled to speak out. Abortion is wrong.  Matthew 10:27 Whatever I (Jesus/God) tell you in the dark.  speak in the light and what you hear in the ear preach on the housetops.

It would have been easier, to have just kept this truth, so many others already take a stand. Making it public, stating on Facebook, sharing in groups, her belief in the TRUTH, took courage.  Matthew 10:38 And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me.

But she knew God’s word and knows she is commissioned to share, for the hope of others. 2nd Timothy 3 16 uAll Scripture is given by inspiration of God, vand is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for 3instruction in righteousness, 17 wthat the man of God may be complete, xthoroughly equipped for every good work.

Knowing that possibly family and friends who are not believers even believers who aren’t willing to stand for truth, may turn their backs on her. For standing and speaking for God’s truth. Matthew 10: 37 He who loves his father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me.

Standing up speaking truth convicts those not in truth, and so many will attack the messenger of truth.Matthew 10:22 And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake.  But he who endures to end will be saved.

She stood for those who can not speak for themselves. Proverbs 3:88 gOpen your mouth for the speechless,In the cause of all who are 2appointed to die.9 Open your mouth, hjudge righteously,And iplead the cause of the poor and needy

Abortion is wrong. Killing a child is wrong. Retribution is expected, by God for injury to a child in the womb. Exodus 21:2222 “If men 4fight, and hurt a woman with child, so that 5she gives birth prematurely, yet no harm follows, he shall surely be punished accordingly as the woman’s husband imposes on him; and he shall spay as the judges determine. 23 But if any harm follows, then you shall give life for life, 24 teye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, 25 burn for burn, wound for wound, stripe for stripe.

God does not say IF. God does not say there are extenuating circumstances. God says DO NOT .Exodus 20:13 s“You shall not murder.

Proclaiming truth, in this world,  is not easy.  She was accused. She was attacked. She was told it is only her ‘opinion’. John 8 45 But because I tell the truth, you do not believe Me.

Those that can not hear, that attacked her, that condemned her, believe the LIE. They would rather not hear, rather attack one they love, They accuse her of being unkind. What if this causes someone to not believe because of the condemnation they feel now. John 8 43 eWhy do you not understand My speech? Because you are not able to listen to My word.. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it. Satan is  the father of lies,  and really good at it, most don’t even know they are listening to him.

She does not back down. She stands and repeats the truth, stands against the opposition. Risks attack again. She does not compromise for the sake of the lie. Matthew 10:28  And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul.  But rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

She knows among those who will not hear, there are some who need the truth Matthew 10:6 Go rather to the lost sheep, …..

She will not despair over those who choose to not hear. She has obeyed. John10:14 And whoever will not receive you nor hear your words when you depart from that house or city, shake off the dust from your feet.

You can not hear from someone you do not listen to.. John 8 47 jHe who is of God hears God’s words; therefore you do not hear, because you are not of God.”

They would rather be of this world belonging to the world and the ‘comforts’ of it. The Liar is their god. John 8 44 You  are of your father the devil, and the gdesires of your  father you  want to hdo. He was a murderer from the beginning, and idoes not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him

Truth is Jesus. Truth is God. Truth is The Word. She knows, through Him. She is sharing the truth, in love. John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

She does not compromise in order to keep relationships with ‘man’. Those who have believed the lie of the TRUTH must be watered down, are believing in the lie.Jeremiah 17:5 Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength whose heart departs from the lord

 She did not let peer pressure change her, nor stop her from doing what God asked of her. Galatians 1:10 For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ

 Even when they attacked her character. Matthew 10: 17 But beware of men, for they will deliver you up to councils and scourge you in their synagogues.

Because she knew  Mathew 10:32 Therefore whoever confesses me before men him I will also confesses  before my Father who is in heaven

And she knows Mark 9:37 “Whoever receives one of these little children in My name receives Me; and whoever receives Me, receives not Me but Him who sent Me.”

 To abort a child, is to forbid a child a life.Mark 10:14 He was greatly displeased and said to them, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God.

Never, for the sake of peace and quiet deny your own experience or convictions  Dag Hammarskold

Matthew 10:34 Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth.  I did not come to bring peace but a sword.

By Tom PettyWell I won’t back down, no I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back downGonna stand my ground, won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground and I won’t back downChorus
Hey baby, there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back downWell I know what’s right, I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin’ me around
But I’ll stand my ground and I won’t back downHey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back down