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NO regrets 49 days to 50

If there were a magic wand, a way to rewind, these are 50 things in the last 50 years I would adjust…..

  1. Being such a chicken about jumping off the diving board in swimming lessons
  2. The date with the Newsome guy
  3. Going to Powell’s house
  4. Getting the flu in January before mom died
  5. Not wearing sunglasses
  6. Waiting till the time of appointment to go visit mom
  7. Go to see Dad instead of back to work. Or drive 120 MPH instead of 100.
  8. Letting myself get fat
  9. Not going up on Eifel Tower
  10. Help Kirk find a rehab
  11. Develop a relationship with Linda
  12. A Rio Doso trip.
  13. Giving Pokey away
  14. Listening to Bill and Shirley and not visiting Mamie, before I left
  15. Backing out with door open
  16. Not checking on Dot
  17. Giving up when I am right
  18. Keeping quiet about the lies and not bringing the darkness into the light
  19. Losing April
  20. Not losing weight sooner- or more.
  21. Moving out without discussing with Mom and Dad
  22. Not keeping the piano
  23. Leaving Tia with Keith
  24. Quiting Sunday School
  25. Wanting that trailer
  26. Not standing up to LRC board
  27. Not finding that perfect wrinkle cream
  28. Getting in the car with Julie B
  29. Drinking the  Bloody Mary’s, Goldslagger,  and Butterscotch nipple
  30. Giving into fear of rejection
  31. Not learning Financial Peace 30 years sooner
  32. Failing to witness to Rice
  33. Freaking out on Jenny
  34. Being fearful of Evan’s failings
  35. Not writing a book
  36. Not building a cat room off of garage
  37. Not planting a garden
  38. Not polishing the floors as shiny as Ricky did his
  39. Getting my ring stuck, and having to have it cut off
  40. Giving Evan that Gerber chicken stick.
  41. Losing contact with Monica
  42. Seeing statue of Liberty and Central Park while in New York
  43. My wedding dress
  44. More kids. A daughter
  45. Did not live everyday to glorify God
  46. Only 1 tea party with my granddaughters
  47. Licking the brownie bowl tonight
  48. Letting ‘them’ do that surgery on Evan
  49. Not knowing about Celiac when Brian was a baby
  50. Time Keith and I loose with batteling wills

I have been blessed. This literally took me hours. I had to search to find 50 things to want to change, or could have been done differently. So many things do not matter at all, my life is none the worse, because I did not have the sexy off the shoulder wedding dress I  pictured myself in. I have an amazing husband, a blessed marriage of almost 32 years.  That daughter I did not have, has been replaced with my daughter in laws and granddaughters. Being with my parents at the time of their deaths, would not have changed their dying.  God brought me through those trials I have no control over, the stroke for Evan, the suffering from undiagnosed Celiac for Brian, He provided strength and peace and blessings for us all through our trials. Much of the ‘regrets’ of life are my own mistakes, my own wrong choices and today, I can still change, I can rectify. I have a future and a hope.  I am stronger and smarter and all the more for all the good bad and ugly of all of these years.

Jeremiah 29:11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

John 14:27Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.