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1Corinthians 12

12 Now concerning spiritual gifts, brethren, I do not want you to be ignorant: Ignorant is not knowing. You are an idiot if you choose to stay ignorant after told the truth.  You know that you were Gentiles,  unbelievers and or uneducated of the TRUE God carried away to these dumb idols, however you were led. Therefore I make known to you that no one speaking by the Spirit of God calls Jesus accursed, and no one can say that Jesus is Lord except by the Holy Spirit.   Today we have ‘maybe’ believers being led away by dumb idols, who are men/preachers/false prophets (i.e. Dallas Willard, Rob Bell,Leonard Sweet )who think they have a better ‘way’ other than the ONLY WAY to eternal life with God. Many now say, if we,mere men, love people enough, we can ‘save’ people with our perfect love from God. WE ,mere men, can excuse all the sins, because we love, love ,love the ‘unbeliever’.The unbeliever will be saved eternally, even without his believing in Jesus as the ONLY Way, because after physical death, their ‘Aha’ moment of seeing believer’s with God eternally, will save them. The dumb idols have also figured out that a loving God would not ever condemn sin. Mere men have redefined God and His word, His TRUTH, so that no one will ever be excluded from God eternally. These dumb idols have called Jesus accursed, by His sacrifice not being needed  for eternal life with God. Man just loving and being loved by God is enough.  By this scripture those that speak this heresy, are not speaking by the Holy Spirit. It is NOT for me to say, nor interpret,  that the dumb idols, or even those who believe the dumb idols, are not believers and the Holy Spirit is not with them, only that when they believe anything other than the Truth, they are not following the Holy Spirit, they are not abiding. 

There are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are differences of ministries, but the same Lord. And there are diversities of activities, but it is the same God who works all in all. No one person is used the same by God. But the same God is the ruler of all. But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to each one for the profit of all: for to one is given the word of wisdom through the Spirit, to another the word of knowledge through the same Spirit,  12:8

The word of wisdom -From   A power of understanding and explaining the  wisdom of God in the truth of gospel salvation.

The word of knowledge – different from ‘wisdom’, maybe the  ability to understand and explain and apply the Old Testament types and prophecies.

to another faith by the same Spirit, ultimate trust in God in ALL circumstances, knowing in the end God is there, nothing to fear, even physical death. 

to another gifts of healings by the same Spirit, not just healing diseases with a word or a touch as Jesus and disciples did, but  also apply to those physicians, nurses,(Clara Barton) mothers ;), gluten free queens (Me), scientists,(Pastuer), midwives (Sandy)  that seem to ‘know , where natural remedies are applied; and it maybe this blessed gift, not superior skill, which makes some more ‘healing’ than others.

10 to another the working of miracles, removing demons, moving mountains killing fig trees, water from rocks, God does all, and still does, He just does them all by himself now, everyday.

to another prophecy, NOT predicting the future like ESP, but interpreting God’s word, His actions to explain what God intends to bring about.

to another discerning of spirits,  the ability to know  if men are acting from God’s spirit, and evil spirit or a human spirit. To be able to distinguish between the truth of Scriptures and deceptive doctrines.  

different kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues.  Given ability to speak in different language to those who need to hear The Word in their language, and ability to hear someone who speaks different language inquiring of God’s word. 1

But one and the same Spirit works all these things, distributing to each one individually as He wills.  God gives these gifts through the Holy Spirit, and as God decides. I believe every believer receives the Holy Spirit and thus gifts. Gifts are not magical powers, they are abilities God gives us to do his work. I think we may receive one specifically, but all as needed, in our ‘race’ to the goal. 

12 For as the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body, so also is Christ. 13 For by one Spirit we were all baptized into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, whether slaves or free—and have all been made to drink into one Spirit. 14 For in fact the body is not one member but many.  All believers are of the ‘body’ of Christ, we become ‘attached’ by the Holy Spirit, Christ is our head.  15 If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I am not of the body,” is it therefore not of the body? 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I am not of the body,” is it therefore not of the body? 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would be the hearing? If the whole were hearing, where would be the smelling? 18 But now God has set the members, each one of them, in the body just as He pleased. 19 And if they were all one member, where would the body be?  This is a finger wagging also, remember how Paul already reprimanded some of them of thinking they were better than because of prestige, baptism regions etc?  No gift is of more importance. All are under the head. Wrist bone is connected to the arm bone arm bone is connected to the elbow, etc. 20 But now indeed there are many members, yet one body. 21 And the eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you”; nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” If the eye sees a danger it withdraws the hand. If the hand becomes angry with the eye and want’s it removed for pointing out a danger, should the eye be plucked or the hand cut off? 22 No, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary. They say we lose all balance if the big toe is cut off 23 And those members of the body which we think to be less honorable, on these we bestow greater honor; and our unpresentable parts have greater modesty, 24 but our presentable parts have no need. But God composed the body, having given greater honor to that part which lacks it, 25 that there should be no schism in the body, but that the members should have the same care for one another.  Paul is emphasizing there is no one greater, in the body. If an important part has issue with what is considered unimportant it is to be assumed the ‘unimportant’ is probably right, and NOT the important . 26 And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it. Pretty self  (or non self) explanatory  27 Now you are the body of Christ, and members individually. We are a body WITH Christ. BUT we are also individuals, responsible for our actions.

28 And God has appointed these in the church:  Paul now gives the ‘jobs’ of the church, to go with the 9 gifts previously spoken of.  One not more important than the other. I still see a bit of finger wagging. All positions in the church are necessary and none any more important. An apostle needs a teacher.

first apostles,- Men sent to preach the Gospel they have ‘Wisdom’. But aren’t we ALL called to preach the Gospel? So those that discern, help, heal, etc. their gifts allow them to posses, for a bit, the gift of Wisdom, to preach. 

second prophets,- Speak words given by Holy Spirit, to explain God’s word, to apply it to today and tomorrow. To Prophesy.  Knowledge. Discern. 

third teachers,- To teach the truth, -Discern and explain the Truth , Knowledge of the scriptures. Wisdom of The Word.

after that miracles,- to’work’ God’s miracles. Healing, Faith of, helps

then gifts of healings, – To heal, to teach of healing. Helps,Faith,Discern

helps,- Faith, Healing,miracles,

administrations,  – Discernment, wisdom, knowledge 

varieties of tongues.- speaking and interpreting tongues. Knowledge, wisdom discernment.

29 Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Are all workers of miracles?  30 Do all have gifts of healings? Do all speak with tongues? Do all interpret?  Not all who discern teach, and not all who have faith help etc. Your gift does not box you into a certain ‘job’ for the Lord. Each individual is blessed to use their gift in what ever ministry they are called to.  Sorry Tim, Herman,Fred, I disagree with doing only what my ‘Rainbow’ tells me to. I discern so I actually do know 😉31 But earnestly desire the best gifts.Want for ALL the gifts and these to come. WANT Choose.  And yet I show you a more excellent way.– There are BETTER gifts than mentioned and WE are to desire, to possess— Next chapter

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AMAZING 50 Celebration

50 happened! And happened and happened!!

I have had birthday celebrations in the past. Easter theme usually, Scan 200with egg hunts and pin the tail on the bunny. Scan 205

Scan 204Scan 203If it was not my year to have lots of friend s overScan 206(I don’t know the ‘rule’ for ‘friend parties, sometimes did and sometimes didnt’)t we would celebrate with family.Scan 207Scan 210Always had a cake Scan 201and presents. Scan 208 Being close to EasterScan 209a lot of the time we would be with my grandparents, and my Pawpa and  would celebrate together, his birthday was the 3rd. And a few times Aunt Mary Lee joined us too, since her birthday was the 8th.Scan 199

I had my first slumber party when I was 10, I think, then another when I turned 13. My big party and last party mom and dad threw me was 16. Kirk’s band came to play, set up in the living room-Scan 212 A bunch of kids came,a lot I didn’t invite,  hid beer in the back yard ( I did not drink) and smoked joints around the side of the house. Mom and Dad were even there, somewhere, choosing to be oblivious , but still taking pictures. I can admit this stuff now I AM 50!Scan 211

No party  can top what Keith just conspired for my 50! . I suppose he took my saying he had to do it big and that I did not think he would be able to surprise me, as a challenge– And he won.

First he brought Bio Mom and Sister in Thursday. SURPRISE!!!!! This was beyond enough!!. I was sure my time with them would be the IT of the celebration, visiting with them on Friday and seeing them off Saturday- Friday, we went shopping, eating lunch, just being together, we three, for the first time ever in my 50 years.  Keith had plans for us to go to the Petroleum Club, special arrangements because we are not members. We girls though decided the Petroleum club was just too TOO. None of us, were looking forward to ‘dressing’ for dinner. I hoped Keith would not have his feeling hurt when I asked for a venue change. He was great about it, found the one other place in town that takes reservations and got us in. We girls went and sat in the bar a bit before he came. When we went in we told them we had reservations but would wait in the bar, they responded with “For 14?” I said not unless he is doing something else– The ‘girls’  denied anything else was happening This restaurant mistake really worked for Keith.

We had our meal very relaxed, joked about the 14 reservation, Keith saying basically ‘This is it” Me saying having Bio and Sister was more than enough. I then had to convince Bio and Sis to come out to the house, so we could visit some more- Even though we were working on trying to convince them to stay another day. They decided to come and Sis was going to use my computer to show me some picts on FB she had. We were in separate cars, I stayed with Bio and Sis for the ride home. I was in the back of Sis’s car reading a People Magazine and chatting, looking up every now and then to be amazed at how well Bio was navigating a car and area she did not know.  We were part way up our long drive before I looked up and saw the line of cars and jillions of people standing on my front porch.Image  I said ‘Shit.”  Bio says I actually said “Shee-at”. Image 3    Then I turned around and walking up behind me was my brother Mike- Who had texted his apologies to me earlier, saying he wished he could have been there to meet Bio and Sis, but just could not get a way—- I cried again- Surprise!   It took me about 20 minutes of Birthday Greetings and Were You Surprised? to notice that everyone was dressed 70’s, or 60’s or 2013. 😉 All pretty much the same. 100_3451 Image 5 Image 6 Image 8 Image 9 For me too- Born in the 60’s ‘lived’ in the 70’s and again in 2013.

I am blessed beyond measure and my 50th is proof- A husband who wants to do all of this for me. EVERYONE adores him and knows and tells how amazing he is- Could not be a better man, for ME. My family, my kids (adults) are my bests, the are my friends, they WANT to be with me- My ‘girls’ really are MY girls they set up this thing for Keith, decorated, invited and entertained for ME. My grandkids and my ‘adopted’ grandkids waiting as excited for my birthday as they are for their own. My brother, the only other of ‘us’ left, is left. He loves me and wants for me , he adores my family and my family loves him.  All of those who came to celebrate my party, those who could not attend who wanted to know how it all went– I got friends, I really do! And Bio and Sis, and beyond them, a call from Bio Brother, Aunts and Uncles who wanted to come- They wanted to celebrate, my birth 50 years later, with me– Wow–

50 years of blessing’s sure looks good to me!Image 10

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The Bestest Birthday Gift ! 12 hours or so to 50

Tomorrow I will be 50!! Less than 2 hours to the 5th. Technically I wont be 50 until sometime in the afternoon.

I will be celebrating this birthday for the first time with my mother and my sister!! Yep you heard that right! And all thanks to Keith!

I told Keith I expected something BIG this year. And he did it.  Keith brought my Bio Mom in and my half sister, they showed up on my front porch this evening to eat dinner with me and my kids and grandkids, her grand kids and greats, her nephews and greats.

Keith would not tell me what, but something was going to happen this weekend.  Tuesday he told me we were having dinner at the house Thursday night, and then something else on my actual BDay Friday. Wednesday he bought rib eye for use to have dinner with the kids, and maybe some others. I told him I knew there would be more than just the kids, because we wouldn’t feed just the kids rib eye. He agreed, but nothing else.

Keith told me to have the house ready by 5, and get the beds ready in case some stay over. Keith came in at 4:30 and started getting the meat ready and I helped him with the salad. Keith got a call, then went out front, to meet whomever I guessed that much 😉 Then I saw Bio and Sis walking up with him. I knew them even though we have only seen each other about 3 times. I had prayed and dreamed of this. My first thought was “who do I know that looks like Bio and Sis?’ Then I wondered if I was suppose to just stand there looking out the window or pretend I had not seen them until they walked in or…. To hell with it, I am running out the door! “HE did this for me.” He did this for me” He brought you here.” I am hugging and crying– I DONT CRY– Hell with that too!  I am so happy so happy so happy on my happy happy birthday!!!!!

Pictures? Nope– not really- Keith has a couple of odd ones of us hugging, he thought he was filming– Old people can’t run these new fangled phones. I will steal those later.

No pictures of all the kids with them- But they are in my head. My heart is about to explode it is so full! My cup runneth over and over and over.! They saw other family members in the faces of my kids and grandkids. My kids saw me in their faces. Ahhhh to belong.

Bio Mom and Sister have gone back to their hotel room– I wish they had stayed here, but I think it is better for them to do it this way.  Probably as overwhelming for they as I , and I am in MY home.  Tomorrow we will go shopping, first time to be 50 and shop. First time to shop with my Bio Mom and Sister—  I can’t wait! I will never sleep.

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Mamie- One of My Moms-3 Days to 50

50 years ago God brought me in this world and  saw that I needed some help.. He knew two of my mothers just could not, or would not, be what He needed them to be, for me. 1. BioMom. 2.Mom. So he gave me two more ‘Mom’s’ Mamie and Mamaw (my Mom’s mother)– This is the story of Mamie.

My dad was a football coach the first five years of my life,  in De Leon. Dad retired coaching and went into his ‘masters’ and taught math and principled, and we left DeLeon.  My mom taught grade school .  I was pretty much ‘raised’ by others, except in the summers.  I was adopted in April, and I believe my grandmother took care of me until the end of the school year in May, then we moved from Borger to DeLeon. Mom and Dad, had me my first summer of 63 ,and all the summers of my life. I think Mom may have had a perforated ulcer that summer, or maybe just before, so she was probably convalescing during that time and not doing a lot of ‘bonding’.

Mom was not the ‘motherly’ type, not the housewife type, not the submissive wife type.  Mom did not cook breakfast, ever, that I recall. Lunch was sandwiches. Dinner was ‘Supper’ during the week, and it was probably out of a can, or a T.V dinner or another sandwich. We did have Sunday dinner, either canned ham, or meatloaf, or BBQ chicken(chicken with bbq sauce poured over it and put in oven) These meals are remembered AFTER De Leon. I honestly do not remember any meals in my De Leon home . Pretty sure I ate, but I can’t promise anything.  I only have 3 real memories of myself in the house in DeLeon- Sitting in the sandbox outside, watching Dad pick peaches off of a tree. Being stuck to the carpet by a wire doll necklace that was piercing my finger, everyone had gone outside, I thought I would bleed to death ;). Sitting in the hall by the back door looking through my toy box for my favorite doll, and Mom telling me she threw it away, cause it was dirty.

Most of my first five years were spent at Mamie’s house. Mamie Wilkerson was my baby sitter, my care giver, my nearly Mom. I spent September through May, Monday through Friday, 7 AM to 5PM with her. When I was an infant I spent some Friday nights with her, while my Dad coached, my Mom supported, my Kirk ran the bleachers, and my Mike played the tuba. Mamie had me 10 hours a day, 5 days a week. I learned to walk with Mamie, learned to talk with Mamie. Mamie’s husband, ‘Pop’ died just after I turned 2, so I don’t remember him, Mamie said I would sit in his big chair with him and he would sing me songs and blow smoke rings and count them.  Toddler antic stories of me are from Mamie. Pulling toilet paper through out the house, me in my walker.Going to help Mamie pull down the laundry ,in the snow, me putting on my own coat and zipping it up, but forgetting to put on my shoes.  Mamie fed me breakfast, lunch and sometimes dinner. Cooked eggs. Snapped green beans, made a pot for lunch. Mamie would make a batch of peanut brittle every week (De Leon is peanut country), grease up the linoleum table with butter and pour the hot liquid out onto it, and when it cooled would have DeWayne (her great-nephew, who some times stayed) and I break it up. Sometimes the sugar shards would poke my fingers and make them bleed. I learned to cook from Mamie. Mamie and I would walk downtown to the store for groceries. Mamie did not drive, but really did not need to. I learned to do, to make do, to do for yourself.  If she needed to go further, she would call her daughter and she would take us. Mamie worked in the nursery at the Baptist church, sometimes I would go with her, if my parents had some school event or ?. In the front room of Mamie’s house was this picture.51FcTqe1xLLIt kind of scared me, the darkness and the children being alone, Mamie found me crying about them one afternoon at nap time. Mamie is who taught me no matter how dark things get, and they will get dark, or how alone I feel, I am protected, I am not alone, ever.  My up to 5 memories are at Mamie’s with Mamie.

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Don’t know her, Kirk,Mike, DLana,Dwayne,Me
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DWayne,Mamie,Me

I have pictures of birthdays 1,2,3,4,5  , but the only birthday party I actually remember, prior to moving to Abilene is with Mamie. In her house. My family was invited ;). Bill, Mamies son,  his wife Shirley, Mamie’s granddaughter DLana, and grandson , who was also Kirks best friend ,Marnie were there, and of course DWayne. I wore my favorite short suit, denim mid drift with red bandana ruffle and matching shorts. I remember swapping between Dad and ‘Uncle’ Bill’s laps and watching the water condense on the outside of the metal tea glasses, as everyone sat around and talked and laughed. I learned to be a hostess,and to enjoy family times.

I looked up Mamie on Find a Grave.com- I found some details I did not know about her. Mamie was 15 when she married to Riley, who was 30. I know now why he died, it was time for him. Mamie was 61, when she started caring for me, grandmother age, she kept me till she was 66. Details, that don’t change the impact she made on my life. Details that do show me education, money, genetics, prestige, refinement,age, those are not what matters. It is the heart, it is the soul, it is the want to love and care, and instill character for a child, even one that is not your own, that makes a mother.   Everything I needed to know I learned before Kindergarten with Mamie. 😉

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April Fool? 5 days to 50

It is April Fools day- Which to me always means my birthday is just around the corner– YIPEEEEEE.

I have survived a few foolish things in my 50 years.  More than I remember. I have made unwise choices. >Things are Happenin...

Those foolish decisions I recall brought me injury. Physically and mentally. I have slide down driveways, skidded across a road in a bikini, had little leaches ALL over my body, bounced around in a rolling Pacer, had stitches from toe to heel, broken my wrist, lost my favorite white pants suit, spent the night cleaning up my best friends Jack reeking puke from my parents bedroom, said yes when I should have said no, said no when I should have said yes, sacrificed my integrity all to ‘belong’, trusted in man instead of God, said things out of anger, had 1,2,3,4 too many. ignored wise counsel, put it off till tomorrow, left the gate open, spoken when I should have kept quiet, been quiet when I should have spoken, got fat, flown across the room with greatest of ease, pet the wrong cat, taken a wrong step…….. I have been the fool.

Some of the foolishness I still deal with- The weight, the aches and pains from the breaks, those I have hurt with my words remember, I have scars from being a fool.

It has been said that to call someone a fool will send you to hell :

Matthew 5:22  But I say to you that whoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment. And whoever says to his brother, ‘Raca!’ shall be in danger of the council. But whoever says, ‘You fool!’ shall be in danger of hell fire.

Those that use this scripture this way are wrong, fools.  Jesus is basically telling everyone to go the extra mile here. The Law still stands, still should be practiced, but not just to get brownie points. Not only do we not murder because the Law says, we love others, we curb our anger, our judgement, because we are lead by the Holy Spirit, because we believe in Jesus Christ as our Savior.

IF Burning in hell were the result of all who pointed out the foolishness of others, then David, Solomon, Peter, Paul and even God would all get scorched.

Psalm 14:1The fool says in his heart, “There is no God.” They are corrupt, their deeds are vile; there is no one who does good

Psalm 74:22Rise up, O God, and defend your cause; remember how fools mock you all day long

Psalm 92:6Senseless people do not know, fools do not understand

Proverbs 1:7The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
Proverbs 10:18Whoever conceals hatred with lying lips and spreads slander is a fool.

Proverbs 13:19A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul, but fools detest turning from evil.

Proverbs 14:7Stay away from a fool, for you will not find knowledge on their lips.

Proverbs 15:7The lips of the wise spread knowledge, but the hearts of fools are not upright

Ezekiel 13:3This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Woe to the foolish prophets who follow their own spirit and have seen nothing!

Isaiah 32:6For fools speak folly, their hearts are bent on evil: They practice ungodliness and spread error concerning the Lord; the hungry they leave empty and from the thirsty they withhold water

Matthew 23:17You blind fools! Which is greater: the gold, or the temple that makes the gold sacred?

Luke 12:20“But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’

Galatians 3:1You foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? Before your very eyes Jesus Christ was clearly portrayed as crucified.

1 Peter 2:15For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people.

1 Corinthians 15:36How foolish! What you sow does not come to life unless it dies

If I continued to choose foolishly, to not abide to my God, to stay stupid, to choose the world, MY way- I would be the condemned fool. If I did not know what a fool I am without Jesus Christ-My eternity would be HOT.