Frustration

I am frustrated!  I looked up the word.  frustrated |ˈfrəsˌtrātid|  adjective feeling or expressing distress and annoyance, esp. because of inability to change or achieve something

I AM frustrated.  I am expressing distress and annoyance and I feel it too,  because of my inability to change something (s) and thus achieve!!!

What needs to change? EVERYTHING. 

I just turned 49, two weeks ago. Not really wanting to change that, but would like to change a few things connected to that:

Wrinkles: Eye wrinkles get eye cream, face wrinkles get day and night cream. I wish I could go back in time and learn to wear sunglasses and smile more. I wish I had some $$ and my hubby would allow me to use it  to nip and tuck and erase just a few lines.

Sags and bags- What the heck is up with my chin/neck or whatever that area is? Where did that come from? I think exercise would only make it worse. I could have a firm jawline and then the chin wing.  The way I am now it at least blends.

Metabolism- I sleep less, so you would think that means I would be burning more since I am up more. I have hot flashes so I sweat during the night when I do sleep, and when I sit still in an air conditioned room- this should be extra calories burned! I have been exercising, walking, sit uping, doing aerobics, pilates, 5 out of 7 days a week. WAAAAAy more than I ever have. I have dropped sugar, and most carbs. In the last year I lost about 20 lbs, over the Christmas holidays I ate maybe 2 small serving sweet treats, and gained 10 lbs.   REALLY?

I am working on changing me, changing my eating habits, changing my want for a quick fix (I did phen fen and I LOVED it! to heck with my heart)  Nothing is happening for me here! I am frustrated.

Beyond ME? More frustration. Because I really can change nothing more than myself.  I can not change idiocy. And I really want to.

Idiot doctors who will not diagnose gluten intolerance first, before taking out body parts. Idiot doctors who think that MD means they know far more than anyone who does not have MD behind their names.

Idiot people who continue to eat gluten, or feed it to their children,  knowing that they feel better with out wheat. People who are too weak to say no to a stinking doughnut, who whine because they are sick all the time, because they eat the stinking doughnut. People who believe the idiot doctor knows more than they do because the doctor has MD behind his name.

People who are afraid to stand for what they believe in.  Me included. IF we are called to ‘stand’ obviously someone is pushing, right?  Why is it that some bonehead with an opinion gets to trump mine? Why is it that all in the name of being a ‘good’person, a Christian, society tells me I have to turn the other cheek, be meek?  Society does not know what God  meant by that!! Why do I let them dictate to me?

People who have the audacity to think their opinion is the only one and always the right one.

People who want to change God and who He is and what He says so they will feel comfortable.  God invented love, tough love too, heck He is love. God made us and he can do what ever He wants with us. Get over it.

People who use their weakness’s as an excuse to not do their best.

People who consider a weakness a skin color, or a gender, or age or an age old injury (that has healed) and want exceptions in life, while those with true disabilities get none.

People ‘in power’ who make more bucks than I, and go on expense paid ‘business trips’ on MY taxes,

People who believe everything the media tells them.

People who think gasoline is expensive because of the oil tycoon who drills it.  It just don’t work that way people.

People who stand on the corner with signs that say “will work for money.”  across from a business with “Help Wanted” sign.   These same people are often in the local stores later talking on their cell phones… REally?!!

Apple has been teasing us with the new release of the Imac for MONTHS.

The only friends Evan has spend all their free time playing video games.

The $2000 transmission job on Evan’s Honda CRV lasted 2 months.  It IS under warranty. BUT it took them 3 months to do it when they were being paid…..

I don’t get to spend enough time with the grandkids.  ALL of them.

I still have not lost 40lbs, or 50 lbs.

I have tinnitus. My right ear RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINGS. Has been for years. It is not in the M.D’s ear so we don’t really care.

I can’t seem to get my fingernails to grow.

The sweet pea plant, the most expensive one, that seemed the easiest to grow, don’t look so good.

Evan’s bathroom is not finished yet.

Keiths stairs are not put up.

The property next door is WAY over priced.

Land loans are 60% down! If I had that much I would not need a loan!

I want someone to call me. I want someone to want to hang out with me. That doesn’t frustrate me.

Rick Santorum dropped out.  I really want a Christian president.

No grass in back yard.

NO RAIN still.  I don’t want to live in a desert.

Hay cost’s too stinkin much

I am frustrated.

BUT,  looking over this, I think the majority of it I have the ability to change.   And what I can’t…. I can work around.

This was helpful.  Thanks.